Sunday, May 9, 2021

 एक मुद्दत हुई है प्यार किए हुए,

तुम आज रुह पर फिर बारिश कर दो।


बहुत दूर निकल आए है चलते चलते,

तुम आवाज देकर रास्ता मुकम्मल कर दो।


बरसो से रिश्तो का बोझ उठा कर थक गए,

तुम आओ छूकर मुझे, जन्नत कर दो।


कभी सोचता हूं, कैसी होगी ज़िंदगी,तेरे जाने के बाद,

इस सोच से मुझे आज़ाद कर दो।


बहुत शोर है यहां, अपनी आवाज सुनाई नही देती,

तुम ख़ामोशी को एक नया एहसास कर दो।


एक बुझी हुई सी चिंगारी है दिल के कोने में कहीं,

तुम आओ और उसे आफताब कर दो।


एक ज़माना गुज़र गया है खुद को देखे हुए,

तुम आओ और घर को आइना कर दो।


कुछ अधूरे छिले हुए लफ्ज़,और मेरे चंद आधे शेर,

तुम आओ और इस काफ़िए को पूरा कर दो।   

 --------------------------- तुम -------------------------


तुम श्वेत अश्व पर सवार हो,

विचारो में एक उन्मुक्त नदी सी,

सूरज के सातवें घोड़े से ुछन्द  विचारों सी 

कुछ नयी, कुछ पुरानी यादों सी,


ना ठहरने वाले वक़्त सी,

सभी दिशाओं में भी ,

कभी यहाँ,  कभी कहीं नहीं, 

व्याप्त है, जो हर जगह, हर पल सी 

हर विचार के तर्क सी ,

गुंजायमान किसी पुराने गीत सी ,


कभी लहरों सी ,

कभी साहिल सी, 

कभी किनारें के पत्थरों सी, 

जूझती खीजती, 

अंत के उस अंत सी, 


जीवन में रसधार सी, 

श्वेत वर्ण पर सवार सी, 

अमावस की उस रात सी, 

दर्द की गुहार सी, 


तुम शून्य हो, इकाई हो, 

या अनंत में एक दहाई हो, 

तुम वेग हो, आवेग हो, 

कल्पना परिकल्पना के परे, 

तुम एक सारगर्भित मौन हो, 

तुम सन्नाटो में शोर हो, 


तुम पूरब भी नहीं, 

तुम पश्चिम भी नहीं, 

तुम उत्तर, और दक्षिण भी नहीं ,

तुम दिशाओं में एक नयी दिशा ,

तुम समय के समीकरण पर झूलता एक आयाम हो, 


तुम संदल की खुशबू, गीली मिट्टी की आरज़ू नहीं, 

तुम फूलो सी नाज़ुक, कलियों सी कोमल नहीं, 

तुम जीवन के शाश्वत सच का चरमोत्कर्ष हो, 

तुम आदि का भी सृजन, और अंत के भी पार हो, 


ना सुबह हो, ना शाम हो, 

ना नीले गगन में इंद्रधनुष सामान हो, 

तुम रंगो में एक नया रंग हो, 

तुम कृष्णिका हो कभी या आदित्य का अभिमान हो    

Monday, October 7, 2019

Travelling


It is only when you travel you realize how beautiful and vast this world is, and understand how bigger, deeper and similar the problems are, I travel to understand and observe how other cultures live, I travel to understand my world better! Traveling opens a different perspective, horizons, it makes you think differently, altogether. it brings out new you, it gives you pleasure, peace, and serenity to your soul, that is why I wish all people could travel the world and bring the world to them!

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

रिश्तो के दामन को आंसुओं से भिगो देती हर एक बात जो तुमने कही, मैंने हर उस लव्ज़ में अपनी ख्वाहिशो को पल पल दम तोड़ते हुए  देखा था....याद  है आज भी वह गुलाबी जाड़े की नवंबर की रात,११:३० की वो ट्रेन जिसे उसी दिन टाइम पर भी आना था। वक़्त ना जाने क्यों पंख लगा कर उड़ रहा था हर घड़ी और मै वक़्त को ही वक़्त से छीन लेना चाहता था....पर यह कमबख्त कब रुका है किसी के लिए। शायद आखिरी बार मिल रहे थे हम दोनों,ना चाहते हुए भी उस भीड़,कोलाहल भरे हुए प्लेटफार्म पर मीलो लम्बी ख़ामोशी थी, हम दोनों के बीच,ज़र्द सा चेहरा लिए हुए मैंने तुमसे पुछा था... "फिर सोच लो एक बार,रिश्ते तो बहुत बनेंगे ज़िन्दगी में,पर खूबसूरत,पाक बहुत कम"... और तुम्हारी ख़ामोशी सब कुछ कह गयी उस  दिन । 

आज भी कभी कभी याद आती है वो रात, तो पलकों के करीनो पर बेवजह ही नमी सी लगती है वही कमरा है,वही पंखा आज भी चलता है, तकिया है पर कभी नम मालूम देता है,और उस नाचते हुए पंखे मे, मै अपनी सारी बीती हुई ज़िन्दगी को घूमते हुए देखता हूँ। वह तुम्हारा बेपरवाह,बेवजह,अल्हड़ जवानी की देहलीज़ पर पैर रखते हुए बचपन के जैसा,जो अतीत से पूरा निकला भी न हो और जो भविष्य को दोनों बाँहों मे भरने को आतुर हो,वोह गंगा जैसा पवित्र,निश्छल प्रेम,अब बहुत याद आता है। 

हम तो बेपरवाह ही चल रहे थे अकेले राहों मे,तुमने हाँथ थाम कर एहसास दिलाया मंज़िलों के होने का,आज निशां नहीं बाकी,उन रिश्तों का जो कभी दिल के करीब थे... यूहीं रास्तों मे लोग मिलते गये, रिश्ते बनते गए और लोग बिछड़ते गए,कुछ रिश्ते दिल पर कभी न मिटने वाले निशां छोड़ जाते है..... हम आज उन्ही जलते हुए रिश्तों को लिए, बनारस के हरिश्चंद्र घाट पर बैठे,ढलते सूरज को देखते है,तो यही सोचते है कि... काश कुछ बदल गया होता, तुम्हारे हमारे बीच तो यह राख नहीं, गुलफ़ाम होते । 


Friday, October 5, 2012

लम्हे


वोह दर-ओ-दीवारे,वो ताख और मशाले,
रौशन थी तुम्हारे तस्सवुर से कभी 
चीखती है, घूरती है बेनूर सी पूछती है, यूही अक्सर मुझसे,
कहाँ गए वोह लम्हे, कहाँ छोड़ आये उनको
वो लम्हे वही है उसी मकां के कमरो में कही,
तडपते सिसकते अपनी चंद आखिरी सासो से रंजिश करते,
मै दफ़न कर आया उनको वही कहीं,
सुना है अफ्सानो से,गली से गुजरते हुए 
आती है आवाज़े  अब भी कभी-कभी,
दीवारे काली हो गयी है,
खुशबु तुम्हारी फिज़ाओ की अब भी है यही कही..।।

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

MemoryLane

I was tried and tested every time
like a thing,rejected,
skies were blue, pain                   
which is excruciating through.                                                          

Getting numb every time, 
my poems don't rhyme,
still looking into the eye,
sometime i feel shy.

Blood doesn't run anymore,
had it stopped long before,
or was it the memories, 
my mind was chasing,                                                            
or the deja vu i was having.   

Your hairs used to fall on my face,                                       
like the fall creating the rainbows in the bays, 
Sometime your eyes used to search me,
as if the moon hiding behind the tree.
 
That crescent smile across your lips, 
those beautiful nails with nail paint on it,
that gentle touch and warm smile,
which always made me travel through miles.

Satin voice and eyelashes,making me nostalgic,
is it a reality or it is a magic,
but i don't know how it went tragic,
the only thing where i don't find any logic.                                                                                     

I still wonder where all this gone,
songs which i used to sing,
and the poems that took me so long,
when i see myself in the mirror, 
i see living reflection of her.                                                                                            
                                                                                            
I never gave up on life,
but sometime i sigh,
had it been the same,
or i become a little insane.

I long to feel your touch,
sometime i feel so high,
was it a marijuana, 
was it a alcohol,
or was it your eyes.......!!!!!!                                                                                               
                                                 

Friday, June 22, 2012

"UNIFORM..."



Routine brings stillness, boredom and sometimes loneliness. Heading towards my home after office as usual which is routine in the morning in bus at around 7:30 I saw kids going to school wearing Blue uniform and carrying their bags with a smile on their face..fresh, soothing and calm..few kids just hopped in my bus and they sat around and were talking about their stuff, which used be my stuff back some years...I took out my phone and clicked a picture of two kids who were i think in class 7 or 8 they didn't show any offense or objection. In spite of that i was smiling the way one kid was hiding behind the one..he was shy..this is something we totally have lost today... INNOCENCE.

I really wonder about life how it went on and on,Things which used be so obvious few years back for me became memories ....what a time it was...No worries, No future planning, No career objective, No appraisals, No weekends, No meetings, No girlfriends only friends. How many of us can really learn from those kids who dress up every morning and go to school and come back, for them there are no weekends only Sunday still they never complain about Monday because they live each day ...Life's definition for them is completely different from ours.

Yes, they do have tension but totally of different kinds.I used to have same tensions back 15 years...homework not done,how to hide your face behind the student so that teacher does not look at you and ask you some question that obviously you don't know the answer...you always rely on your friends blindly for any question that they knew and you don't, back then you never used your brain on what you don't know...but there is always curiosity to know something new, that was the true knowledge, when you don't know something you accept it and when you know something you stand upon it.

I really miss those morning prayers now...which used to be of no sense back than....and it was the one of the most boring time of school,adjusting your tie,rubbing your shoes back to your pants to make them shine, asking about some most terrifying teacher's homework, looking for the house badge..if it is there or not..., and always afraid of being called upon the stage in morning prayers..for JAM,Elocution,debate or saying prayer.

We totally had a different kind of fears, but they were sweet in themself back than, we never used to think about future back than...i wonder how much we plan things now ...back then there was total randomness in our lives...we used to just do things.

Today money is something which I can say Every one of us is Running after switching Jobs, Fat packages, Appraisals, Bonus, Software Engineer to Senior Software Engineer to Team Lead and to Manager to the ends...back then the best days of the month are those when we had 5 or 10 Rs in our pocket...and with those 5 10 bucks we knew we can buy one hell of a world, be it aloo patties, samosa, matar, cake in canteen or bhel poori, ice cream, chooran or imli after school.

I still remember the Thelewaals which used to stand at the gate of My School and back then this was the only place which was used to be a hangout place for food with friends...not something like McDonald's and Domino's and some other joints in today's date. Back then the best thing or gift would have been a pencil box of Camlin and we used to carry geometry box and we always wonder why those triangle type things are always there in the Geometry Box back than most of us don't even know that they are called SET SQUARES.. :) :)

Life was simple and beautiful back than...yes it does have the routine but we never got bored of that routine...Most boring time of school was when we had summer vacation, because we knew back than we are not going to meet our best buddies for someone and half month...and the first day of school after vacation is like a total discussion day of what one did in summers,what are different kinds of video games and cassette one brought..yes back than there were no CD's and Play-stations even if there were some CD's definitely they were out of reach of some my kind of kid. I remember that 64 in 1 cassette and contra game, whose first game was ISLANDER....some other Favorite were Road rash, Mario, Load Runner, Bomber man. . . :) :D

How many of you had the hesitation back then when you joined new school the first time...all eyes are looking at you and some random students of your class keep on coming up with the same set of questions...what's your name and where you studied...back then the most important question was for us is to ask a name... I really wonder the innocence that we had....it was not like this time..when we meet somebody today we shake hands and tell our names..back then people used to come at your seat and ask for your name...that was childhood :) :)...No ego, No attitude, No sense of self-righteousness....!!!

Today when I see school kids. I smile just for no reason...I can see my reflection in every child..when I look at them I became nostalgic,. I know each and every one of us became nostalgic when you saw the kids dressed up like that....not all the time but it did happen to you once for sure.....I Know some years back this used to be my days...
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yes, I TOO HAD SCHOOL DAYS.. :) :) :)